According to Mathew

Single and hopeful in the month of LOVE

For hopeless romantic singles alike, we all wake up in the morning hoping to find that someone whom we can swift off his/her feet.

Valentines is nearing and I’m feeling a bit weary.

It has been five months now since my used-to-be special someone and I broke up.

That previous relationship was my first real take on a romantic ride. It started smoothly and I was savoring every moment of the trip.  As I and my used-to-be special someone traversed that romantic road, we encountered a couple of bumpy rides here and there until the almost two years’ worth of romantic ride finally met its end.

Now, I’m not longing for us to be together again because I could only careless. What really bothers me is the fact that I’m having a hard time looking for a new flame. Or sho

uld I quit looking and just wait?

They say that there are lots of fishes in the sea. I do agree but it seems that I’m really not interested in those fishes that

I’ve seen. Well, maybe some of those fishes caught my attention for I thought that I already found a fish to catch; it should be a big catch in my own opinion. It seems my ideal, a perfect would-be flame. But life can really be unfair because it’s either these fishes are already caught in bait by somebody else or you see them fishes once and that is, they never return.

And I think I almost come to this point where I have sworn not to fall again. Finding love and being in love are both stressful and it is starting to turn me off. Both the dating and being “in love” stages are just repetitive cycles of bitter-sweet feelings.

Still, there are these morning when I “dreamt” of waking up besides my special someone.

I think it is really like that. Love is a constant challenge for anyone and the glaring truth is that no matter how hard we try to resist from it, we all still long for love. Adding to this is the fact that when it comes to the affairs of the heart, no matter how smart we are, even my 145 IQ wouldn’t be able to defy it for we suddenly become stupid. Rich and poor, old and young, men and women, you and I – we are all the same, nothing more than a slave of love.

And yes, when we fall in love, we hit the ground hard most of the time. But this doesn’t keep us from falling for nothing is comparable to the pleasure we feel when we are in love. Perhaps love is a form of masochism in disguise.

But hey, if you are really serious in finding love, or rather, if I’m really serious in being in love again, in finding my special someone, maybe I wouldn’t mind getting hurt. Maybe I’ll get bruises here and there, but if that’s what it take to get from YOU, I’ll traverse the rocky road of love so that someday, I can say that my heart is smiling because of YOU. So that when I’m with YOU, I won’t notice other people around us. So that I’ll came to the point where I couldn’t see myself not in love with YOU.

And may I pull an excerpt from Paulo Coelho’s book, Brida:

“But how will I find my soul mate?”, Wicca said to Brida. “By risking failure, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end”